MY SPIRITUAL JOURNEY


I was born in a large Christian family. Ever since I know my father he has always been a Minister of the Gospel. He is also the founder of a church in the community where we lived.
Being the youngest of twelve (12) children, it was only natural that I attend church on a regular basis.

I accepted the Lord as my personal savior at an early age. Actually this was during my early years at High School.

At that time my only desire was to seek the BAPTISM of the HOLY GHOST and to receive the gift of speaking in tongues.
I tried tarrying for the Baptism of the Holy Ghost in prayer meetings, however, to my dismay, I would only be sanctified. That is, stuttering of tongue.
The disappointment of not being made a part taker of the Holy Ghost somehow seems to weaken my strength in the Lord; thus allowing the Devil to find a way in; resulting in my turning back to sin.

After many years of not going to church and living in sin, I migrated to United States in 1992.
I went to Quincy College in Boston MA. where I obtained my Associate Degree in Business Administration (Accounting concentration). During this time, I did not attend church and had no desire to go.
The main reason for this was that the idea of going to church for the fun of it has never appeal to me. My belief has always been to serve the Lord with all my heart, soul and body or forget it.

I guess Revelation 3:16, has always been embedded somewhere deep inside my subconscious mind: So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.

I spent several years in Boston, then migrated to Canada to join my husband in 1998.
After spending over two years in Canada I still could not find the desire to go to Church or read the Bible.

My sisters and parents never gave up on me however; they kept praying and constantly encouraging me to go back to the Lord.
The more they encourage me though, I would respond and say; yea, yea, I know and that would be it.

Since the year 2000 came and went I started having a burning desire to start serving the Lord again.

I said to my husband: Byron there ought to be something more to life than only getting up in the mornings going to work, eating and sleeping.
We need to worship a GOD, whom ever we conceive our GOD to bewe need to worship him!
I knew however, that there is only one GOD, AND THAT IS; THE TRUE AND LIVING GOD, the one that created the HEAVENS AND THE EARTH.

With my coming to the conclusion that there is a God that needs to be worshipped and I was not doing it left an empty feeling within my being.


On October 29th, 2000, my sister came from Connecticut to visit me and she brought along an evangelist by the name of D.C. Chambers. He came for convention in a church in Toronto.
That Sunday I went to church along with my sister.

While Evangelist Chambers was preaching his sermon, he came down from the altar and laid his hands on my shoulder and started to pray.

There was an altar call, so I went along with a few others. What happened at the altar was most amazing; this changed my life forever!

This man started prophesying about my life; He had his had on me, prophesying; telling me how the Lord loves me and told me several things about my childhood life that only my close relatives knew. I thought it was too good to be true. I was wondering if my sister told him a few things about me, so I was not too keen on listening to the prophecy.

He then caught my attention when he began to say: The Lord says he wants to take you back to your school days, primary school, High school, the type of person that you werewowthis caught my attention. (My High school days I use to pray and read the bible in school a lot; none of my family member knew this; I was even baptized during those days).

He went on prophesying:
He said remember promises that you have made; when you use to sit by her feet and make promises...
(Here he is referring to my Grandmothernow he really got my attention)I broke down and started crying.
I guess you can tell that I love my grandmother; I did promise her that I would be there when Jesus Christ comes for the rapture of the church.

He continued prophesying:
The Lord loves you, he loves you, he loves you; He has his hands on you; He says after today, you will never be the same again: He says lots of prayer going up for you,

Now I know that the Lord was speaking to him that day. I really regretted not listening to the entire prophesy.

THAT DAY I GAVE MY LIFE TO THE LORD all over again
The prophesy came through within a few days, I have made a 180 degree turn in my life.
1 Thessalonians 5: 20 says, Despise not prophesying: because I did not despise the prophesy, and take heed to the word of God, my life has not been the same since, both physically or spiritually.

Today I can tell you that I was really lost, when Jesus came and found me. Matthew18: 11, says; the son of man is come to save that which was lost.

I really want to thank God today, that he did not give up on me, even though I went astray.
I was like a lost sheep; strayed away from the fold, and he kept searching until he found me and brought me back to the fold. Matthew18: 12, explains:
12 How think ye? If a man have an hundred sheep, and one of them be gone astray, doth he not leave the ninety and nine, and goeth into the mountains, and seeketh that which is gone astray?
13 And if so be that he find it, verily I say unto you, he rejoiceth more of that [sheep], than of the ninety and nine which went not astray.

14 Even so it is not the will of your Father which is in heaven, that one of these little ones should perish.

Bless your name Lord, Thank you Jesus, Bless your name Lord; Thank you Jesus for remembering me!

Now my husband, Byron, as well as the Evangelist were amazed of how quickly my life was changed.
I have changed from an ungodly person to a totally spiritually focused person.

Before I got save I could not touch the bible; Now, I am so much into the word it is like food for me.
I have been going on FASTINGS regularly and praying a lot IN THE MORNINGS; for what specific reason I cannot say, just a burning desire to go on fasting and pray.
Breast feeding my baby doesnt seem to stop this desire.


Even after I got saved, It felt as if something was still missing. I felt as though I was not at the place where the LORD wants me to be. I mentioned this to someone and he said that most Christians are not at the place, so I should not worry about it.
However, that suggestion could not satisfy me so I continued to search the bible for answers.

The Holy Spirit mentioned to me that I needed to read the epistle of John, about the crucifixion of CHRIST, in order for me to have a connection with God.
I started out doing just that when my husband, BYRON, came and told me about an Internet site called WWW.MAMA.COM where I could find the BIBLE ON THE INTERNET; to my surprise, there was also the movie of the crucifixion of Christ.

As you can tell, I watched the entire movie on line. This movie was taken from the entire Chapter of Luke.
At the end of the Movie, there was a sinners prayer. After I said this prayer with conviction, I knew without a shadow of doubt that I was saved.
I had my hands in the air shouting: Here I am Lord, I believe.
There was joy in my heart; I then realized that the item that was missing in my life was the joy of salvation.

Moreover, my spiritual life has become even more fascinating. I started getting spiritual and heavenly dreams/visions, which I would like to share with you.




















MY HEAVENLY DREAMS




A DREAM THAT I, MARLENE SAW NOVEMBER 24, 2000---WOKE UP AT 8:10a.m.

I dreamt that I was at a park. The Park had a large open space with benches. Similar to park in Jamaica called Hope Gardens.
I was standing at a section, when I saw a black guy talking to a white girl.
The Black Guy was telling the white Girl that he was waiting on someone to bring him some DRUGS to let him feel better.
I heard the conversation and I said to him, you know, DRUGS is not the answer, it is the Devil that wants you to take this DRUGS to destroy you and so you never get to know about God.
The Guy then said to me; I cant hear you, I will come a little closer. When he came closer to me I told him about this Pentecostal church that I was visiting.
I then said to him: Why dont you come to church with me on Sunday? The guy then turned to me and said.ARENT YOU AFRAID THAT I WOULD HURT YOU?
I turned to him and saidyou wouldnt dare hurt me and while I have a baby in my hand
Then suddenly I looked up in the sky and I saw a silver looking cross coming from out of the skyit was very thick and massive and beautiful, in the middle something was inscribed.

I then touched the guy and said to him; look! There is a cross in the sky! I looked over to see if the white girl was looking at the cross too. The cross started getting bigger and bigger coming towards me, then suddenly I saw a man appeared before the cross, he was huge, but I cannot tell what his face was like, neither his feet. However, my eyes were focused on his chest.
His bosom was huge, and thick and massive with a beautiful colorIt looked alive as though it was flesh:
My eyes where focused on his chestI started jumping up in the air with my hands stretch out upwards to receive him.
I then heard a spirit that says to mebut you have not received the Holy Ghost! And another spirit says I wonder if my sister in Connecticut is watching.
The body became bigger and bigger, then went whoosh!. and disappear past us.

My Baby, Brandon who was four (4) months old at the time, was lying beside me on the bed; the speed jerked my baby and the babys vibration woke me up.

I got up and looked at the time. It was 8:00a.m. in the morning.
My husband, Byron, was getting ready for work. He was having a shower.
I went in the Bathroom and said to my Husband:
Byron, Byron, I saw the cross and it is not a board cross.
It is huge and thick and has a silver colorand I saw his chest; His chest was huge and thick
I went on and on, until I started crying and giving thanks.

I could not eat for that entire day and everyone I came in contact with I told them about the dream.
I called my parents and told them about the dream. They were so thrilled to hear that I had such a dream.
There were rejoicing and praying at the other end of the line.

As for me, the magnitude of the dream was so powerful. I was scared to go back to sleep; because of fear of what I might see again. However, I continued with fasting and prayer in the mornings, and the reading of the words of God.




MY SECOND HEAVENLY DREAM:

THE SECOND DREAM THAT I, MARLENE SAW December 5, 2000 WOKE UP at 7:00 a.m.

I dreamt that I was walking to meet my mother and one of my sisters. The place was very dark as if there was no light anywhere in the worldthen I found myself running lifting up, shooting through the air and then down again in a continuous motion.

I looked up in the sky and saw two menone of them had a glow which formed a semi circle above his head. On the inside of the semi circle was a white glowI cannot tell what clothes he was wearing, so I will say that his form was white. There was another man I could see this man a bit clearer; his gown was colorful and beautiful. He has dark flowing hair to his shoulders, both of his hands were by his side, and he and the other man were looking at me.
I remembered looking at him wondering who this man wasand a voice (not a spirit); as clear as crystal said to me: His name is called JESUS.

I THEN CONTINUED ON until I met my mother and my sister.
I began to tell them about what I saw on my way to them.
I told them that I found myself running and shooting through the air and that I saw two men in the sky; one of them had a glow above his head and the other, his gown was colorful and beautiful and I was wondering who the man was and a voice says to me, his name is called JESUS.

We were heading back home, when I saw a guy that I knowI am not sure if it was my husband or another guy I kissed the guy goodbye and said to him: Be careful, because it is dangerous out there. When I looked in the street, I saw people running here and there with long guns in their handsHe assured me he would be careful.

On my way back home with my mother and sister, I saw a man and a woman sitting by the side of the street. I went to approach them and the spirit says to me. DONT TOUCH THEMthey are unclean.
We continued on our journey, suddenly I heard my baby talking in his crib and woke me up.

With this dream, I was so disappointed to know that it was NOT REALITY. I mentioned the DREAM to my husband who seems very fascinated.
He then told me that I should not tell many people this one, because not many people would believe me.
I thought about what he said and ponder about itrealizing that my dream was pretty powerful(me seeing JESUS! And not only JESUS BUT ALSO AN ANGEL!)
As usual, I continued to fast as well as continued reading the word of God.










MY THIRD HEAVENLY DREAM:

THE THIRD DREAM THAT I, MARLENE SAW December 10, 2000
BETWEEN 12:00 p.m. & 3:00 p.m.


I dreamt that I was in a big open space in my home where I once lived.
I was telling my sister about seeing things in the skybut she could not understand
Then I turned around away from her and saw a big circle in the sky. Within the Big circle where smaller circles.
The smaller circles were not quite circles they were not exactly round. Within the smaller circles were writings with long straight lines, as straight as an arrow, but not having the arrow head coming from them.

I turned to my sister and said to her: look! There is a CELL in the sky! I called the circle in the dream, a cell.
I then said, It is an AMOEBA.

In the dream I was thinking of biology where in which a cell reproduces itself. My sister still could not understand, then I saw my brother coming towards us and I shouted to him and said David, isnt this is a cell? An amoebae?
In the dream I remember that he did biology
Then I woke up.


I mentioned my dreams to my Pastor, and he asked me what do I think the LORD is trying to say to memy response was I am not surewhat do you think?




MY FOURTH HEAVENLY DREAM

THE FOURTH DREAM THAT I, MARLENE SAW December 16, 2000
WOKE UP at 11:45 p.m. SATURDAY NIGHT


I dreamt that my sister and some family member were in a building, an upstairs building...I am not sure if it is hotel or house, but it has a big glass window.

I was standing their holding my 4 month old baby...looking out yonder...when I saw the clouds started clearing up...and started forming different animal shapes...human head on animal body and so on...
I called my sisters and family to look at the different shapes in the sky...

The sky then lighted up and I saw the Lord appeared on a BIG THICK MASSIVE WOOD LOOKING CROSS, BROWN IN COLOUR, IN HIS FULL FORM.

IN FACT, IT SEEMS AS IF I SAW DOUBLES OF HIS FORM IN THE DREAM, AS IF THE END OF ONE CROSS WAS ON TOP OF ANOTHER...AND HE WAS ON BOTH CROSSES IN FULL FORMWITH HIS GORGEOUS BEAUTIFUL BODY
The sky lighted up brightly with his presence.
My family was looking through the window observing the animal shapes in the sky when I saw Christ appeared in his glory.

I turned to them and said:
Now you guys believe me about seeing stuff in the sky?
See ... I was referring to the presence of the Lord making his appearance.
I moved away from the window: because to me this was it...the coming of the LORD...EVERY THING SEEMS SO REAL...

I exalt your name LordI Glorify your nameI magnify your nameThank you Jesus!!!

I went to a table in the house and stand still listening to hear his shout...HIS presence hit the lights that were in the house and the place was in total darkness...and I stiffened!
I then heard the thunder roll...and I stopped my breath and stiffened up clenching my fist...saying to myself; this is it...this is it listening out for the lord to make his shout!! ...

However, nothing seems to happen, I was taken into another dream concerning a church having division inside of it...one set of people singing this way, and another having their OWN SONG...and things were contrary in the church.
The Pastor was preaching, however, no one was listening.

I gave my husband, Byron, a cassette to play, which had beautiful Christian music.
Everyone started listening to the tape, and was enjoying the musicthen I suggested that they make a copy of the tape, because I needed my original tape.
I was about to leave the churchit seems as if they were selling food of some sort in the church.
I woke up from this Earthly dream. The Time was only 11:45 p.m.


This time, I know what the LORD IS SAYING TO ME:

He is saying, kathy, look, I am much nearer than you thinkget yourself readythe harvest is ripe and my labourers are few

Let the people know of my coming!
Let them know that the coming of the lord is at hand!
Let them know of what you see of me in these dreamslet them know that, now is the time to start watching least I come as a thief in the night!

For if the righteous can scarcely make it, what says the sinners and the ungodly!
I am about to burst the clouds with the sound of the trumpet this is the time for you to wash your garments clean

Hebrews 13: 15 SAYS:
15 by him therefore let us offer the sacrifice of praise to God continually, that is, the fruit of [our] lips giving thanks to his name.
16 But to do good and to communicate forget not: for with such sacrifices God is well pleased









MY FIFTH HEAVENLY DREAM:

THE FIFTH DREAM THAT I, MARLENE SAW December 24, 2000
WOKE UP at 11:56 p.m.


I dreamt that I was at a group meeting at a place.
The place was dark and we were outside.
The pastor then said: All those who want to receive the Holy Ghost should join hands.
He started reading the scripture, and I had my hands up towards heaven to receive the Holy Ghost.
Suddenly, a young man appeared in the sky and I started pointing at him and trying to get the girls attention to the man in the sky; However, I could not speak.

The spirit then says to me: keep your focus on him.
So I kept watching him with my eyes.
Suddenly, I heard myself saying: The Lord says, and the Lord says, and the Lord says.
This was coming from my belly bottom and I could not stop it. I was then hit with a powerful forcewowthen I find myself speaking, speaking, speaking. I listened to myself rolling my tongue and speaking, then I woke up out of my sleep!

BLESS THE LORD! THE LORD IS WORTHY OF ALL PRAISE! GLORY AND HONOUR TO HIS NAME! AMEN.